By Myself and Then Some by Lauren Bacall

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The epitome of grace, independence, and wit, Lauren Bacall continues to project an audacious spirit and pursue on-screen excellence. The product of an extraordinary mother and a loving extended family, she produced, with Humphrey Bogart, some of the most electric and memorable scenes in movie history. After tragically losing Bogart, she returned to New York and a brilliant career in the theatre. A two-time Tony winner, she married and later divorced her second love, Jason Robards, and never lost sight of the strength that made her a star.

Now, thirty years after the publication of her original National Book Award–winning memoir, Bacall has added new material to her inspiring history. In her own frank and beautiful words, one of our most enduring actresses reveals the remarkable true story of a lifetime so rich with incident and achievement that Hollywood itself would be unable to adequately reproduce it.

The Washington Post - Meryle Secrest

Bacall reveals herself as someone with the same kind of inner resilience and resourcefulness, even if the later pages of her book are shadowed by the loss of many people she has loved. And those who see her as a model of evolved womanhood, a questioning, self-realizing person who also understands the role she plays in the lives of her family and children, will find much to admire. She herself wrote, "The climb has been mostly upward, and I'm still climbing." What a treasure.

Publishers Weekly

Raised by her wise and loving immigrant mom and uncle, Lauren Bacall (b. 1924) knew, even in high school, that she wanted to be an actress. She took acting classes, modeled clothes, sold industry papers in the theater district, ushered at shows, danced at the USO-anything to get a break. Barely 18 when director Howard Hawks brought her to Hollywood for a screen test, she soon fell in love with Bogart, married and started a family. After Bogart's death a decade later, she rebounded with Sinatra, but tied the knot with Jason Robards before finding her way as a single woman, with friends and work as her passion. Bacall's intimates-from Katharine Hepburn to Adlai Stevenson-weren't the standard air-kissing, gossip-column regulars, but people who loved and respected each other for their work and their values. Sadly, like Bogart, they're also of a generation older than Bacall, so there's a lot of dying in these pages. Indeed, this sequel to 1978's By Myself is mostly a discussion of the deaths of some great friends: Roddy McDowall, John Gielgud, Gregory Peck and many more. Bacall does discuss the roles she's played as an older actress, but this work's real theme is the experience of surviving the death of so many wonderful friends. Readers looking for basic Hollywood romance and drama can stick to the first 400 pages; those seeking a more mature portrait can brave the final 100. Either way, Bacall's a class act. Color, b&w photos. (Mar. 1) Copyright 2005 Reed Business Information.

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• ISBN: 0060755350
• Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
• Pub. Date: March 2005
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Chapter One

All I had known of films was Bette Davis and Leslie Howard. (I was in love with him -- alas, was never to meet him.) She was my fifteen-year-old idea of perfection -- fine actress, dramatic bravery, doomed tragedy, sardonic wit -- all an actress should be, and when I cut school I would sit all day in a movie house sobbing through Dark Victory or Jezebel or The Old Maid, smoking in the balcony (I paid for a whole package, so I had to finish it). Forbidden at home, of course -- getting sick on tobacco, and Sen-Sen to get the stench out of my mouth so as to go undetected by Mother and Uncle Charlie. One morning my uncle came in to kiss me goodbye before leaving for work and said, 'Have you been smoking?' Shaking, I replied, 'Of course not.' Whereupon he went into the next room to tell my mother he was certain I was smoking -- whereupon they both faced me, trembling in my bed. 'We know you have been, we can smell it on your breath.' What had happened to Sen-Sen? -- it had failed me for the first time. In a flood of tears I confessed -- I had, but I would never do it again! 'Please forgive me -- I promise.' Mother: 'You'd better not, a girl your age -- disgusting -- what kind of a girl do you want to become -- nice girls of fifteen don't smoke!' Oh God -- would I survive this humiliation!

Tail between the legs for days afterward -- Charlie and Mother sniffing daily, trying to detect the evil weed. My first confrontation with the Sam Spade syndrome. Wouldn't I ever grow up -- be on my own, free to do what I wished? Wouldn't I ever live alone? The purity of Jewish upbringing -- the restrictions that one carries through life being a 'nice Jewish girl' -- what a burden. But if you were -- and I was -- you had it drummed into your head from childhood by your mother, grandmother, uncles, that nice Jewish girls didn't smoke -- weren't fast -- nice Jewish girls had character. 'Don't chase a boy, ever -- if he wants to see you, he'll call; if not, forget him.' But what were you to do if your head was filled with dreams of beauty, glamour, romance, accomplishment, and if you were stuck with being tall, ungainly (I didn't know I was 'colt-like' until a critic said I was), with big feet, flat chested -- too young to have finished high school at fifteen, too inexperienced, shy, frightened to know what to do with a boy when I did have a date? If my dream would only come true, then I would know how to behave, then things would fall into place -- wouldn't they?

I wouldn't always be a wallflower. Already there was one boy who had a fantastic crush on me. I went out with him because there was no one else, and I tried to make him part of my romantic dream. He'd kiss me goodnight. He was sweet to me, he was boring, but he did call -- I'd better be nice to him. It was soon Christmas, then New Year's, and I didn't want to be alone New Year's Eve -- not when my friends had dates -- so I went to a party with him on New Year's Eve -- just sixteen, sweet sixteen -- and we danced to 'Deep Purple' while I pretended he was Leslie Howard. Pretending started early. What a fantasy world -- so much better than the real one. We sat on a sofa in the darkened room, he had his arm around me -- he kissed me, I guess -- all the kids were doing the same thing -- 'Happy New Year!' Why wasn't he Leslie Howard just for that moment I looked at him? It wasn't good enough, I thought, to have someone crazy about you if you felt nothing. No -- it would not do. I couldn't stand him, couldn't bear to let him touch me. I should have known right then that it would always be the same -- I had to be madly in love or utterly revolted. No happy mediums for me! So I started that year -- 1941 -- deciding not to see him again. I always made out a list of New Year's resolutions and that was one of them. I didn't keep the others, but I did keep that one. No compromises in life for me -- I wouldn't settle -- I'd rather not go out, just live with my dreams.

Each time I was in love -- this was it. The hunger to belong. Imagination is the highest kite that can fly. When you have nothing but dreams, that's all you think about, all that matters, all that takes you away from humdrummery -- the fact that your mother was working too hard and didn't have enough in her own life, that your grandmother, loving though she was, wanted you to get a decent job to help your mother, that you didn't have enough money to do anything you wanted to do, even buy a lousy coat for $17.95. Dreams were better -- that was where my hope lay -- I'd hang on to them, never let go. They were my own.

It wasn't that I was deprived -- we just had to live on a strict budget. No, it was that everything I fantasized about had nothing to do with everything I lived. Not a thing! Yet Mother gave me everything -- everything she could -- more. She was a decent, proud, honorable woman who despite her struggles never lost her sense of humor. She just wanted me to be perfect. She wanted me to have it all, but to know and to learn while the search was on; to realize that there were other things not to lose sight of. She wasn't proud of having to count the pennies -- not resentful -- just very private about that and everything else to do with family ...