Easter Parade by Richard Yates

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Neither of the Grimes sisters would have a happy life, and looking back it always seemed that the trouble began with their parents' divorce. That happened in 1930, when Sarah was nine years old and Emily five. Their mother, who encouraged both girls to call her "Pookie," took them out of New York to a rented house in Tenafly, New Jersey, where she thought the schools would be better and where she hoped to launch a career in suburban real estate. It didn't work outvery few of her plans for independence ever did-and they left Tenafly after two years, but it was a memorable time for the girls.

"Doesn't your father ever come home?" other children would ask, and Sarah would always take the lead in explaining what a divorce was.
"Do you ever get to see him?"
"Sure we do."
"Where does he live?"
"In New York City."
"What does he do?"
"He writes headlines. He writes the headlines in the New York Sun." And the way she said it made clear that they ought to be impressed. Anyone could be a flashy, irresponsible reporter or a steady drudge of a rewrite man; but the man who wrote the headlines! The man who read through all the complexities of daily news to pick out salient points and who then summed everything up in a few well-chosen words, artfully composed to fit a limited space-there was a consummate journalist and a father worthy of the name.

Once when the girls went to visit him in the city, he took them through the Sun plant and they saw everything.

"The first edition's ready to run," he said, "so we'll go down to the pressroom and watch that; then I'll show you around upstairs." He escorted them down an iron stairway that smelled of ink and newsprint, and out into a great underground room where the high rotary presses stood in ranks. Workmen hurried everywhere, all wearing crisp little squared-off hats made of intricately folded newspaper.

"Why do they wear those paper hats, Daddy?" Emily asked.

"Well, they'd probably tell you it's to keep the ink out of their hair," he said, "but I think they just wear 'em to look jaunty."

"What does `jaunty' mean?"

"Oh, it means sort of like that bear of yours, pointing to a garnet-studded pin in the form of a teddy bear that she'd worn on her dress that day and hoped he might notice. "That's a very jaunty bear."

They watched the curved, freshly cast metal page plates slide in on conveyor rollers to be clamped into place on the cylinders; then after a ringing of bells they watched the presses roll. The steel floor shuddered under their feet, which tickled, and the noise was so overwhelming that they couldn't talk: they could only look at each other and smile, and Emily covered her ears with her hands. White streaks of newsprint ran in every direction through the machines, and finished newspapers came riding out in neat, overlapped abundance.

"What'd you think of that?" Walter Grimes asked his daughters as they climbed the stairs. "Now we'll take a look at the city room."

It was an acre of desks, where men sat hammering typewriters. "That place up front where the desks are shoved together is the city desk," he said. "The city editor's the bald man talking on the telephone. And the man over there is even more important. He's the managing editor."

"Where's your desk, Daddy?" Sarah asked.

"Oh, I work on the copy desk. On the rim. See over there?" He pointed to a big semicircular table of yellow wood. One man sat at the hub of it and six others sat around the rim, reading or scribbling with pencils.

"Is that where you write the headlines?"

"Well, writing heads is part of it, yes. What happens is, when the reporters and rewrite men finish their stories they give them to a copy boy—that young fellow there is a copy boy—and he brings them to us. We check them over for grammar and spelling and punctuation, then we write the heads and they're ready to go. Hello, Charlie," he said to a man passing on his way to the water cooler. "Charlie, I'd like you to meet my girls. This is Sarah and this is Emily."

"Well," the man said, bending down from the waist. "What a pair of sweethearts. How do you do?"
Next he took them to the teletype room, where they could watch wire-service news coming in from all over the world, and then to the composing room where everything was set into type and fitted into page forms. "You ready for lunch?" he inquired. "Want to go to the ladies' room first?"

As they walked out across City Hall Park in the spring sunshine he held them both by the hand. They both wore light coats over their best dresses, with white socks and black patent-leather shoes, and they were nice-looking girls. Sarah was the dark one with a look of trusting innocence that would never leave her; Emily, a head shorter, was blond and thin and very serious.

"City Hall doesn't look like much, does it?" Walter Grimes said. "But see the big building over there through the trees? The dark red one? That's the World—was, I should say; it folded last year. Greatest daily newspaper in America."

"Well, but the Sun's the best now, right?" Sarah said.

"Oh, no, honey; the Sun isn't really much of a paper."

"It isn't? Why?" Sarah looked worried.

"Oh, it's kind of reactionary."

"What does that mean?"

"It means very, very conservative; very Republican."

"Aren't we Republicans?"

"I guess your mother is, baby. I'm not."

"Oh."

He had two drinks before lunch, ordering ginger ale for the girls; then, when they were tucking into their chicken 'a la king and mashed potatoes, Emily spoke up for the first time since they'd left the once. "Daddy? If you don't like the Sun, why do you work there?"

His long face, which both girls considered handsome, looked tired. "Because I need a job, little rabbit," he said. "Jobs are getting hard to find. Oh, I suppose if I were very talented I might move on, but I'm just—you know—I'm only a copy-desk man."

It wasn't much to take back to Tenafly, but at least they could still say he wrote headlines. "

... And if you think writing headlines is easy, you're wrong!" Sarah told a rude boy on the playground after school one day.

Emily, though, was a stickler for accuracy, and as soon as the boy was out of earshot she reminded her sister of the facts. "He's only a copy-desk man, she said.



Esther Grimes, or Pookie, was a small, active woman whose life seemed pledged to achieving and sustaining an elusive quality she called "flair." She pored over fashion magazines, dressed tastefully and tried many ways of fixing her hair, but her eyes remained bewildered and she never quite learned to keep her lipstick within the borders of her mouth, which gave her an air of dazed and vulnerable uncertainty. She found more flair among rich people than in the middle class, and so she aspired to the attitudes and
mannerisms of wealth in raising her daughters. She always sought "nice" communities to live in, whether she could afford them or not, and she tried to be strict on matters of decorum.

"Dear, I wish you wouldn't do that," she said to Sarah at breakfast one morning.

"Do what?"

"Dunk your toast crusts in your milk that way."

"Oh." Sarah drew a long, soaked crust of buttered toast out of her milk glass and brought it dripping to her reaching mouth. "Why?" she asked after she'd chewed and swallowed.

"Just because. It doesn't look nice. Emily's four whole years younger than you, and she doesn't do baby things like that."

And that was another thing: she always suggested, in hundreds of ways, that Emily had more flair than Sarah.

When it became clear that she would not succeed in Tenafly real estate she began to make frequent all-day trips to other towns, or into the city, leaving the girls with other families. Sarah didn't seem to mind her absences, but Emily did: she didn't like the smells of other people's homes; she couldn't eat; she would worry all day, picturing hideous traffic accidents, and if Pookie was an hour or two late in coming to get them she would cry like a baby.

One day in the fall they went to stay with a family named Clark. They brought their paper dolls along in case they were left to themselves, which seemed likely-all three of the Clark children were boys-but Mrs. Clark had admonished her oldest son Myron to be a good host, and he took his duties seriously. He was eleven, and spent most of the day showing off for them.

"Hey, watch," he kept saying. "Watch this."

There was a horizontal steel pipe supported by steel stanchions at the far end of the Clarks' back yard, and Myron was very good at skinning-the-cat. He would run for the bar, his shirttail flapping beneath his sweater, seize it in both hands, swing his heels up under and over it and hang by the knees; then he'd reach up, turn himself inside out and drop to the ground in a puff of dust.

Later he led his brothers and the Grimes girls in a complicated game of war, after which they went indoors to examine his stamp collection, and when they came outside again there was nothing much to do.

"Hey, look," he said. "Sarah's just tall enough to go under the bar without touching it." It was true: the top of her head cleared the bar by about half an inch. "I know what let's do," Myron said. "Let's have Sarah run at the bar as fast as she can and she'll go skimming right under it, and it'll look really neat."

A distance of some thirty yards was established; the others stood on the sidelines to watch, and Sarah started to run, her long hair flying. What nobody realized was that Sarah running would be taller than Sarah standing still—Emily realized it a fraction of a second too late, when there wasn't even time to cry out. The bar caught Sarah just above the eye with a sound Emily would never forget—ding!-and then she was writhing and screaming in the dirt with blood all over her face.

Emily wet her pants as she raced for the house with the Clark boys. Mrs. Clark screamed a little too when she saw Sarah; then she wrapped her in a blanket-she had heard that accident victims sometimes go into shock-and drove her to the hospital, with Emily and Myron in the back seat. Sarah had stopped crying by then—she never cried much—but Emily had only begun. She cried all the way to the hospital and in the hall outside the emergency roorn from which Mrs. Clark emerged three times to say "No fracture" and "No concussion" and "Seven stitches."

Then they were all back at the house—"I've never seen anyone bear pain so well," Mrs. Clark kept saying-and Sarah was lying on the sofa in the darkened living room with most of her face swollen purple and blue, with a heavy bandage blinding one eye and a towelful of ice over the bandage. The boys were out in the yard again, but Emily wouldn't leave the living room.

"You must let your sister rest," Mrs. Clark told her. "Run along outside, now, dear."

"That's okay," Sarah said in a strange, distant voice. "She can stay."

So Emily was allowed to stay, which was probably a good thing because she would have fought and kicked if anyone had tried to remove her from where she stood on the Clarks' ugly carpet, biting her wet fist. She wasn't crying now; she was only watching her prostrate sister in the shadows and feeling wave on wave of a terrible sense of loss.

"It's okay, Emmy," Sarah said in that faraway voice. "It's okay. Don't feel bad. Pookie'll come soon."

Sarah's eye wasn't damaged—her wide, deep brown eyes remained the dominant feature in a face that would become beautiful—but for the rest of her life a fine little blue-white scar wavered down from one eyebrow into the lid, like the hesitant stroke of a pencil, and Emily could never look at it without remembering how well her sister had borne pain. It reminded her too, time and again, of her own susceptibility to panic and her unfathomable dread of being alone.